doras tales

It's been a tough few days, work has been busy and there are changes afoot with the house I'm living in.  I've found it incredibly unnerving.

Reflecting back on the day when I received what I perceived was bad news I looked to two people for support, my brother and my mate Liz.  


Just being able to voice my fears helped me process what was going on.  I'm far more settled now, able to rationalise it through and be excited about the journey ahead.

I'm so looking forward to finding new roots, a new home and another new beginning.

I'm grateful for my family and friends for I am not an island (even though at times I'd like to think I am

As much as I know that Christmas is a time of good cheer in my industry it's a time of manic craziness... the workload pretty much doubles and being in a constant adrenalin rush  has it's down size, I'm finding that the mind just doesn't shut down and so here I am at 4 in the morning wide awake.

Well the upside, I'm writing again and man oh man I've missed it.. is this work - life balance?

Not sure if a paragraph is writing again but it sure feels like it.

Is  blogging self indulgent?  Is it narcissistic? pretty much and in my case cathartic too

I'm in the throws of some pretty big changes in my life (yet again!!) from business to what I'm eating, health and exercise!! I'm totally overwhelmed tonight.  
Now there are some people that think lists are crap, that you should rely on your intuition and that what needs to to be handled will be handled.   I on the other hand like to purge myself of what is on my mind and write everything down... I call this activity a list.  Lists give me clarity, they give me a starting point, a place to rest with what I've written on the paper, a place where I can finally think straight... bring on the list I say! bring it on!

My girlfriend Marie has a mum who is dying, a painfully slow death that has whittled down her robust body to an emaciated state.
She's in pain alot of the time.  Marie told me of a young nurse who sat on the bed alongside her mother stroked her hair gently and kissed her forehead.  Marie's mum calmed down immediately thanks to that random act of kindness
What act of kindness can you do today?

I was watching Private Practice a few weeks ago and haven't been able to get this particular scene out of my mind.

One of the characters is a recovering drug addict and she is going through some tough times.  She's standing in front of the medicine cabinet in the doctors surgery longingly.

Her colleague and friend (another doctor) enters the room.. their conversation goes something like this

".. Everything hurts" (...without drugs to numb the pain).. he responds by saying

"If you don't use, the pain will pass.  I know the tunnel is long and dark but if you don't use the tunnel will end and the light will come, come back in.. if you use the tunnel never ends...."

I reckon I've been addicted to food for, god, as long as I can remember!
I haven't got the answers yet, I know I've been working on this for the last 18 months and am aware that this scene is another piece of the puzzle, another message sent from the Universe to help me find the light and the end of my tunnel